Quote, originally posted by gotta_jet » my g/f was recently diagnosed as bi-polar after suspecting it for years, but doctors not listening.
she would have mild breakdowns and panic attacks alot, and one day she just had a complete breakdown, and thankfully checked herself into the ER. she spend a weekend institutionalized and they diagnosed her as bi-polar with a mild personality disorder.
her cycles were maybe 3 days to a week...and would come on suddenly within seconds. it's very scary because you just know when she's going to start feeling bad, and you can't do ANYTHING to stop it she would be fine, and then just start laughing out of control, and all of a sudden just break out into tears.
her symptoms are alot like what DigitalTexan has described, although my g/f hardly ever has any appetite.
she has been on a carousel of the wrong medication for a long time, and they're finally putting her on a carousel of what's supposed to be the right medicine. i can't remember the names, but after being institutionalized, they put her on Effexor, Depakote (an anti-psychotic), and these tiny little pills for her to take when she came down with a panic attack.
she has stopped taking the Depakote, and gone from Effexor to something else, which she hated because she gained 15 lbs on it, and is very, very sensetive about her weight, but she is losing much of that weight again, and that's helped her alot.
like many people said, it has taken quite a toll on her personal life and career. she has trouble holding jobs, because of her state of mind, and has recently become sad about things she used to like to do. she's very creative and enjoys painting and sculpture, but all of a sudden really dislikes most things she has painted and made. it might be because most of the subject matter is very dark and morbid, and she's trying to distance herself from depressing things like that. she also is liking less and less the music she used to enjoy, for the same reason.
i guess as some things get better, other things get worse, and she's trying as hard as she can to get better without medication. she and i both agree that there are some things you can fix without medicine, and some things you cannot. her father on the other hand is not as understanding...he's in the camp that thinks people don't need medicine and can just 'snap out of it'. mostly because he's worried though.
we've been together 5 years now, and though at times it is hard, i'm happy that i have never found myself asking 'is it really worth it', or struggling to hold onto things.
that's so good to hear how supportive you are