Personally, as painful as breakups are, and divorce even more so, I would be much happier knowing that the person I was with wanted all of me. One of the (many) things that I love about my husband is his ability to see me in ways that I don't see myself, and if one day that stopped I would be heartbroken. Marriage is about making each other better, not just being in parallel lives.
Also, you get to have birthdays and Christmas again!
We do make each other better that is one of strengths in our marriage but it also turns into fierce competition....
Saturday we were doing truck push and pulls ....
Ford F250 and her first pushing of the truck was further then mine but then I kicked her ass on the rest of them.
That and we have a lot in common its just one of the largest things is sexually I don't find us compatible at all. It sucks , especially due to the insane cult reasoning on no sex before marriage . Who knows maybe with all this recent weight loss it will change for the better.
One thing I do know she is willing to do what ever it takes and why its was so hard to stay away , it would of been really different if she flipped bitch on me , which she didn't. So that is another reason I want to stay.
Maybe I have to high of expectations of her and especially of myself ?
-its Christmas when ever I want it , I just bought a 55" LG 3D Tv this weekend
It's probably one of the only reasons I stay since I would lose everything if I didn't stay with the wife.
I know I am not staying due to loving her that is for sure.
I am already looking at apartments / rooms to rent for 3-6 months .
We are fantastic friends , we click great but I have 0 feelilngs for her at all.
Would you want to be married to someone who doesnt love you ?
Would you want to be married to someone who you dont love ?
Its been 12 years and I view for the last 2-3 its been fun as roomates but not as husband and wife.
Dont get me wrong she is a flat out awesome person , that in my mind is no question and shes willing to do what ever it takes . I just need someone I desire or at least want some what .
I know if she felt the same way , I would want her to leave so she could be with someone who she wants to be with.
Trust me if there was a .00001% chance of here going for it I would be 100% for it.
I think I found an apartment for a 3-6 month lease.
Also do only mid 30's gay dudes rent rooms ?
At least there well decorated houses.
And no I will not be joining the gay thread lol